Feb 26
cn’t stpppppp
So. Did you know that kids nowadays think that emailing is lame? Yeah. Instead they IM, and it’s pretty handy because I can interrupt their conversations instantly and just bug them until they are forced to answer. Which is so much better than standing at their door and nagging, because I don’t have to expend any energy at all. However, between that and the monitoring I do occasionally, I’ve had to quickly learn their version of cyberspeak (or whatever it’s called today, ‘cyberspeak’ sounds sort of outdated but that might just be me), and I find it amusing the girls and all their friends have this habit of dropping vowels, as in ’srsly’, yet repeating the last letter endlessly: srslyyyyyyyy. I don’t know, kind of defeats the purpose if you ask me, but the thing is, it has insinuated itself into all the writing I do. I am constantly having to go back and edit stuff, like work emails, and one day I just know I’ll send something out that goes like this:
ALCONNNNNNNNN
chk yr unsat rdosssss. Srslyyyyyyyy.
thnk youuuu,
tsgt wllmssssssssssssssssssss
Just FYI - my own use of repeating letters is not the same thing–I place mine in the middle of the word, not the end. Completely different.
Anyway. I found myself panicking earlier because I couldn’t get to my website. I would refresh and refresh and refresh and I kept getting an error message and I had no idea what to do because omg what if my site is down and John’s not here to fix OMG WHAT DO I DO???? I sent my seester an email demanding her to see if SHE could get to my site and then I obsessively refreshed THAT thinking, WHAT THE HELL, TONI, why aren’t you answering me back? HURRY UP. And then I was overwhelmed with this HUGE DESIRE to post, even though I didn’t actually have anything to say but SITE IS DOWN MUST POST NOW kept flashing through my brain and I did not know what to do. I was like, googling myself and trying to access the site from my cache, which is so stupid, I can’t even laugh at it. And I had tennis tonight, and I was literally watching the clock, not wanting to waste a single second trying to get the site up, like, sweat pouring off my forehead and this loud tick-tick-tick sounding from the clock and me, wide-eyed, frantically hitting the “try again” button, all “i have to post, i HAVE TO POST DAMNIT NOW NOW WORK NOW!”
Fortunately I had to leave just then because who KNOWS what I would have done. Probably detonated.
Hey, so. I have this anxiety thing going on, the doctor says, along with a panic thing and…some other things, and since the anxiety and the panic are affecting my physically, as in, panic attacks and not sleeping EVER, she (the doctor) is now on a mission to make me ‘normal’. And, I don’t know if I want that. Is that strange? I don’t want to change…I don’t necessarily want the panic attacks and the other stuff, but still…I sort of like me.
Srslyyyyyyy.
Tschuss!!
February 26th, 2008 at 11:26 pm
Hmm the added letters are just TOO MUCH WORK for teens, didn’t you know that? You have to REALLY abbreviate, to the point where it is more work to read it than write it.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Hey I like you all anxious and panicky, don’t ever change, unless it is in a real train-wrecky way. I would like that, cuz I am superficial like that and love to read the crazies..:)
February 26th, 2008 at 11:49 pm
The other day ammogirl.net wouldn’t load for me, first it loaded all funny followed by it not loading at all. Went away in a few hours though.
Oh oh oh anxiety and not being able to sleep. Cutting the caffeine helps a lot with both. And if your doc wants you to try any medication lemme know what it is and maybe we’re taking the same thing, then we could be BFFs 4evaaaaaaaaa!!!!
February 27th, 2008 at 12:11 am
You know… One of the reasons I love reading your blog is because you mention things frequently that have expressely to do with the air force… So when I see “ALCONNNNNNNNN” it makes me crack up lol
February 27th, 2008 at 5:29 am
Kay - Okay, deal. Sometimes I think it would actually fun to be a trainwreck blog, because think of all the great things you could write! You’d NEVER have to censor yourself! I think one week in the future should be…trainwreck week.
FG - I guess it’s my host. I go through Bluehost.com and they’re generally pretty good but…I did read last night that they do go down a bit. I know about cutting the caffeine, but I do one cup a day! One cup! It’s all I ask for. But check your mail later, I’ll let you know what fun things I’ll be getting.
Rodney - Ha ha! That comment made ME laugh! Maybe next time I’ll just write in bullets.
February 27th, 2008 at 5:46 am
lol
February 27th, 2008 at 1:24 pm
brevity counts lol
that would be the best epr ever
Spr-hddddddd ldng of wtr n2 rfrgrtrrrrr; ncrsedddd mrl of thrstyyyyyy trps 20%–prmttttt srslyyyyyyy
I always try to work in spear-headed into every one of my epr’s lol
February 27th, 2008 at 5:03 pm
rodney - okay, prmttttt srslyyyyyy has to be the best promotion statement I’ve ever seen.
February 27th, 2008 at 7:22 pm
Well, I say keep the parts of you that make you, well, you, and get rid of the anxiety that isn’t good for your body. I know it sounds crazy, but meditating has changed me totally! I used to be a really anxious, panic-attacky person and I have been able to manage it so much better with meditation. It took a while to figure out how to sit still and do it, but I swear by it now. Lemme know if you want some tips and I’ll pass along the stuff I’ve got.
Love youuuuuuuuuuuu!
February 27th, 2008 at 7:25 pm
that would be awesome…. you could write your bullet statement and any room left at the end could be filled with y’s lol